Hello. Welcome to PC.

Do you see a therapist or psychiatrist? How about the quality of your sleep? Do you eat well? Do you exercise regularly? Do you practice mindfulness and gratitude? Do you have a good support system? Have you built up a system of coping skills? Do you meditate or focus on your breathing? Do you hush the negative self talk? Are you gentle and compassionate with yourself?
These are a few things you might consider. Posting here is good for support. Sending big hugs. (((Hugs)))