OMG!! i guess I should have scrolled more abd then went back to depression...I DIDNT know there was a forum for chronic pain!! D'uhhhhhhhh. Sometimes I think I look for my brain to reconnect it, but it has shrunk //2 OH well, it is just me.

I have a question? It just keeps going thru my head as I sit here on the bed with pain that moves and muscles that twitch and cramp and a screaming pain in my lower body...what does it feel like to be pain free??? Please can someone give me something I can dream about or think of?? I am falling apart and I have more than a week before the nuero. I don't know. I thought about emailing my dr and asking for pain meds but since she took me off the other meds, for the neuro, I would loathe myself if i held up testing for my selfishness.

Now I feel stupid and feel like I am rambling...ughh, I can't win for trying. ~ Melanie