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Originally Posted by Lonlin3zz
I acknowledge your progress, currently on the same track as you, my dear 
My experience with passive suicidal thoughts (but not acting on it), was due to my stubbornness of perfection and not acknowledging negative emotions.
I've got past that phase, and I'm currently healing wounds by stimulating my own emotions, to find out what causes the fear-based feelings. It's like surfacing my wounds, cure them, and so that when someone touches the same spot, I will just shrug it off haha
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Ha, you seem to be perfectly balanced with your emotions. So refreshing
Stubborness of perfection and not aknowledging negative emotions seem right up my alley. The aknowledging negative emotions epiphany came a few months ago, when I started thinking about quitting therapy with that therapist I talked about above. It made my anger return, which I promptly medicated lol New therapist is talking about how I may be overmedicated to treat emotions, and I agreed. I haven't been able to really cry in years, I tear up, but no tears ever fall. I thought it was a good thing, since for years and years I always cried too much, but maybe that's internalized 'other people's judgements' of me, and not my real emotions about it.
Thank you for your elucidating reply, very much appreciated.