Anyone out there in pain? I need to feel something other than pain and emptiness. I feel like I have no one to talk to. I don't really trust anyone, and I feel like everything in my existence is trying to antagonize me in some way or otherwise take advantage of me. On top of that I feel like I have no purpose in life. I burn out on things so easily. On life in general. I find myself constantly asking myself (and God) why I'm still here. I feel like death is near and I'm sad because I feel misunderstood, and what could have been..No friends, no one in family really knows me, and what I've done and been through in life. I've resorted to this forum, and I don't really know what I'm looking for or accomplish, other than maybe knowing I'm not alone. One minute I feel like I must talk to someone, than the next minute I know I can't or wont. Affair to sleep and negotiating my way through life by distracting myself while trying to numb without harmful chemicals. Dreading the moment I have to force myself to lay down. Dreading doing all of this again the next day.

thank you for reading, hope your light shines bright and peace love and safety to you.