I bet you're pretty observant - it's a survival skill

Once when I told T "I bet you hate me", she actually asked "Did you assume how I feel about you?" haha. Believe his words, you can definitely read his body language. T likes to be all "How does the room feel?" and "Does the atmosphere feel like I dislike you?"

I find I leave feeling more connected if I'm more present / grounded (rather than not really there because I'm in my head) during sessions. That takes time, consistent effort from T and probably a whole bunch of stuff to achieve though, and can be really hard when you've chronic dissociation.

(again, because dissociation was to survive awful things and so now it's habitual and easily triggered...and being dissociative doesn't mean you're bad or not doing therapy right...it's a trauma response **hugs**)

Are you still considering asking him for a transitional object to remind you he is real, and he cares, and yes you'll see him again?

4 more days? One hour at a time. I can hop in your pocket or count with you?