Thanks. I selected the t I see based on expertise in mood disorders and substance abuse. As we inventoried my history, she pointed out the correlations of mood swings and drinking/using. She is concentrating on giving me tools to keep from getting in the bad place where I choose to drink/use rather than attacking it directly, at least not yet. I was in denial from my first BP dx for a long time and have accepted it (had it "rechecked") and I am in treatment and getting more appropriate meds than I did in the past when I had my primary treat it like unipolar depression and kept quitting meds. Now I am on a mix with a mood stabilizer, more carefully titrated AD and a ADHD med that isn't a stimulant. I am also attacking the problem head on as a focal point using the tools I am learning in Recovery International meetings. So I have a lot more things aligned to reduce the odds of slipping back into the old behavior. I have also been a lot more open with family and care team so I have more eyes on me.