Every time I tried to fit in, I was immediately reminded that I didn't and wouldn't. I therefore quit trying. I have over time found a very few places. I'm usually in a big group of one. I'm not sure group in hospital is a good example, but I'm safe there and don't feel forced but accepted. I recently found out about some groups on the outside, but they are during yoga classes and I cannot allow those to be missed. Yoga is where I got into the Universe, and I find it most important of anywhere. I have been told I'm probably on the spectrum, and it explains things but doesn't take away the desires to be wanted and accepted