Having ice cream and coffee was the highlight of my day. I am trying to focus on the little things in life that's positive, but it's hard. I have a lot of expenses coming up, which I'm dreading.

I felt myself getting tense today as different thoughts became too overwhelming. I want to gain a sense of control over my life, but feel incapable and scared of change. Little things from the past keep creeping up and intrusive thoughts. Also, my sleep isn't great. I feel zonked out half the time, and people are even able to tell, which makes it worse. These damn meds.