Today's session was a bit different than most my sessions. I arrived in a different mindset. I shared with her a video and we talked about the impact of the video on me. Then I moved onto updating her on my weekend and on MC. I spent a fair amount of the session talking about my wife, the relationship issues, and my take on things there. T played the supportive role through the session; allowing me to "vent" it out. We talked about the difference in our personalities and how it plays out in our relationship some.

My alarm on my watch went off and we were at a good place. I asked her if she had anything, hoping that she'd bring up touch and she didn't. I told her a little of my head space coming to session - how as I left work feeling really young, I got the stream of thoughts that ‘mommy loves me. Whoever mommy is, mommy loves me’. She said something about that feeling good and I said yes. It did feel really good. I told her that things are changing - meaning in me.

We did the usually closing these days of
me: I love you
T: I know
Me: I miss you
T: I know, I'm here
Me: I told myself that too
T: I'm here and I'm there. Thank you for being you.

Then some talk about seeing each other on Thursday and breathing as I worked my way to leaving. I didn't want to go. T was patient as I work my way to leaving. I left and was pretty much on time leaving.

I love her, I miss her, I try to remember she is here with me.