My Support Forums - View Single Post - dissociative disorders check in thread #3

Sep 26, 2017 at 03:23 AM

my first thought today: why do I always count down the days to death?

Possible trigger:

the voices in my head have always made it clear to me that I will die on a sunday afternoon at 4 PM (i've posted this somewhere before)

so when I'm close to a sunday, I always count it down

then sunday comes and it never happens and I start the countdown again to the next sunday

sunday should be a happy day, right?. sunday should be a time to celebrate.

celebrate i've lived another week

celebrate life

but It's not that

sunday seems to celebrate everything I fail in

that's why I don't like it, I think.

didn't enjoy my breakfast too much (not enough marmite on the toast!)

still feeling a little ill from my pizza yesterday too, so it plays a part..

feeling quite empty and stuff.

not really feeling much