((((many hugs)))))) I am so very sorry for your pain and your situation.

I agree with the others, and the suggestions made. These are excellent suggestions, and your mother is most certainly being abusive. You should not be denied treatment, and your mental health issues should not be denied either. To try and take your own life, well, your mother is turning a blind eye in sheer ignorance. I am angered to hear this, and I really feel for you in your position. Please do seek professional help through any of the ways suggested above. I truly hope you get the help you need, and your meds. Please take care of yourself. We're here for you. ((((HUGS!!!!)))))