I've forced my self to sleep for the past 3 days because I didn't want to feel the anxiety I am feeling .
I had friends on the internet on an online game but they have turned against me because i didnt agree that they were bullying others on the game and i tried to help the person they were bullying . now they are trying to bully me but i uninstalled all those apps so i cant read their nasty messages. But its still in the back of my mind that people hate me . that doesnt feel good . now that ive stopped my internet gameing i have nothing to do and no friends . i even thought about suicide once or twice but i went to sleep instead .
Im on a new medication now . i hope it starts working soon , the last one didnt work at all .

I hate myself and my life . i hate that i have no friends and that my flat is a mess and that i have no money and that i am ugly . my hair is all matted together . i dont even know how that happened .
I wish i wasnt here any more . i dont even know if i am good or bad but if there are people who hate me i must be bad .
I dont know what to do anymore . i hate my life .