Thank you Jennifer 1967. After this last visit with him I knew it couldn't be. He said it himself, if we were to make it work it would be his way. That he would control everything. I already wasn't talking with friends, and my family would have not wanted to hear from me for choosing him. And he already told his friends were HIS friends, so I would have been at his mercy. I know he would have made me get a job closer to home so he can probably drop me off and pick me up. He hated that I worked in the city. Accusing me of having boyfriend in the city cause he didn't know what I was doing. Plus he told me that all the names that he was calling me I deserved for what I did, and asked me if I thought it was fair cause I deserved worse.... And I was believing him and agreeing with him. He always threw things in my face before, he would have really dragged me through the dirt this time. In 5 months he destroyed my heart, my mind and my soul. I use so be so confident and proud of my accomplishments. Now I feel ashamed, dirty and such a loser. He just kept putting me down and used all my weakness and insecurities against me. And it worked. I need to find myself again and is been hard [emoji22]. I even left my beautiful huge apt in a beautiful village which had a front porch and a back deck, gorgeous. I am living in a room with my sister until I can get a grip of my sanity. He really messed me up and I don't know how to get back. [emoji24]