I really loved him. All I wanted was a man that treated me well and could protect me. I didn't realize his protection was more of control. He did all the right gentlemen things I wanted and more. He bought me too and every time I tried to give him money he said no is ok I want to do this cause I don't want anybody else. Yet he would constantly throw in my face how much he spent on me. I tried to to please him in every way possible to show him that I would do anything for him... it was never enough. And he always found something to make me feel bad about. Love had me blinded to the other way he was treating me, I thought if he was jealous and controlling was cause he cared... it was about his ego and always being in control. [emoji17]