I hate this, I feel for you.
I find myself in a group situation where I feel shunned on a fairly regular basis, only the invitation comes second hand, and often as an after thought. My boyfriend regularly attends functions or get togethers with members of a group to which he belongs. I am sometimes asked to attend outright but in most cases the invitation is assumed in that spouses and significant others are welcome to attend.
I loathe these occasions. I have nothing in common with these people. For the most part they ignore and talk over me. I have distinct differences with them and at times I cringe being around them even sometimes forcing myself not to cry in disgust. I am not sure what is the worst - being utterly ignored or feeling I must conform to fit in. It is not like I can continually not attend. As my boyfriend is vice-president of this club there is an expectation that I attend.
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