New here, sorry if this is not the best place for this post.

Recently I was browsing the internet and came across a blog/ journal entry of a woman explaining how she came to the realization of her fetishes. In which she described memories of herself as a 5 year old child 'masturbating'.

Now, the reason I was even in this part of the internet was because I shared the fetishes and turn ons this woman was describing. And as I read I myself grew aroused at what she had written.

Everything was just about up my ally except for the fact this was all involving a child. And that's where I broke shortly after completing her blog post.


I felt very ashamed and felt as though I had violated a child when all I had done was read a collection of memories someone willingly shared for all to see.

Stranger still I have the urge to go back to the journal entry read it again and see if I still get aroused from it. As if to prove something to myself.

I know in my heart of hearts that I am not sexually attracted to children. I may have problems but that's not on the list.

I cannot shake the feeling that this is the beginning of a path I do not wish to walk.

Thanks.