Blu, welcome. I'm so sorry that happened to you and that you're still feeling the effects.

Abuse survivors have a wide range of reactions to the sexual trauma. It's true, some avoid relationships but not all. Some are promiscuous, some are relationship dependent, some are dependent on physical affection, some have difficulties making relationships work, some are prone to setting themselves up to repeat their victimization inside new relationships, and some become abusers themselves. The point is, we're all different and react in unique ways. Whatever your reaction, it's important to get help and work past these issues so that you can have healthy relationships in your life.

I'm glad you're here and I hope the site is useful to you.

Cyran0