I have OCD and ADHD to begin with. But for the past year I've lost myself. I lack empathy and struggle with impulse control. Now I have had these problems for a while but they popped back up. I steal things and lie and then feel guilty but rationalize my behavior. I've been called a sociopath several times but denied it. I have very low self esteem and want to be special so bad but fail a lot of times. I'm never satisfied and always try to get attention and people's praise. I suck with dating because I don't know how to talk to them and relate to them so I become hyper and lose myself. I have anger problems. Mainly impulsive anger outburst, but I take stimulants which make me less impulsive a lot of times. I never understand myself. I think I'm something, but not. I mean back then I used to be liked and I charmed people to like me so that I could be praised. But now no one likes me. I fake things and lie so so much too the point we're it's a habit. I lie so much I start to not like myself for lying like that. Ocd makes me very intrusive and stressed out. Sorry for the random sentences, I have a hard time keeping focus on the topic sometimes. I don't know what's true about me and who I am or what I am doing. I'm trying so hard to be approved. I'm not like myself anymore. My psychiatrist is trying to give me assignments and she can't figure out with me. but that's all I've lost my self image and my personality and what makes me special.