All the many things the parental units did and didn't do. My upbringing wasn't just not "ideal" - it was appalling. And a set of circumstances made something cruel into something far worse. I'm still reaping the "benefits" today. And I'm fighting as hard as I can, I don't think it's fair that papa bear also has to suffer because of the dysfunction, neglect, lies and abuse in the "family" I was born into, as I'm also "avoidant" making genuine friends in the real world isn't easy. If this comes over as a whine I'm sorry. Some people, and I agree with them,think it helps to get things out at least it shows I'm still trying

I'm sending positive thoughts to all who are in pain tonight