So, I've been drinking on and off for most of this year since a friend of mine died. I've not had problems with alcohol before but at Uni I was known for my enjoyment of alcohol. Latterly it has got bad and I've been drinking beer daily. It's got to the point where it's affecting my mood and I saw my p-doc yesterday who affirmed he thinks it's the drinking.

I really need to stop but I always find some "good reason" to drink. I've decided to give it a shot by myself first but if that doesn't work my p-doc will refer me on to services that can help.

I'll admit I'm drinking today but I don't have enough money left to afford beer for the rest of the month so I'm hopeful getting a few days head start before I have money will help.

I almost managed a couple of weeks ago when I went to visit my parents but then my Dad arranged a visit to the pub with my brother in law and I felt I couldn't say no.

I know I can do this, I'm not having any signs of physical addiction so it's just the habit I got to break. Yet, I know from smoking and stimulant use that the psychological addiction is the hard one to beat.

Tomorrow is the day (as ever), but really this time. Wish me luck.