Christina, if I read between the lines correctly, your step dad molested you once? And he's also an alcoholic who can be violent or threatening? And on top of that, your family is verbally combative and abusive?

Considering all that, I'm not surprised that the molestation still bothers you. That alone can be too much to process but when you pile all this other stuff on it, it's crippling.

I have a lot of trouble believing the molestation was your fault. If it was your step dad and you're the age I think you are, and this was six years ago, there's no way it was your fault. He was in charge and even if a young woman in his charge is dancing naked in front of him, HE is still responsible for crossing that line. He has the power and he should know better.

I'm sorry the holidays have been hard but please don't blame yourself. As for your family, I hope you're able to get yourself out of that situation sometime soon.

Be safe.

Cyran0