I am a 32 yr old mom to three wonderful children, and I am also an alcohol abuser. The problem started about 4 yrs ago with my ex husband, who was very verbally abusive. I don't blame him for my actions or my addiction. However he was very unsupportive. The last year or so of my life I have gone though a lot of changes. I divorced my ex husband and am now remarried to a wonderful guy who treats me like a queen. We have a new baby girl she is 2 months old. My other two children are age 12 and 8. They are from a previous marriage prior to my recent ex husband. I am in my 3rd marriage. Thats just a bit of a run down.. I drank daily when I was w/ my ex and even after I left him. I meant my husband now and I became pregnant before my divorce was final, in April of 07. I married my babies father 1 month before our daughter was born. I never drank during my pregnancy. However since I am no longer pregnant I have been hitting the bottle out of control, and I am scared..... I am embarrassed to talk w/ my new husband about my problem. I don't get to the point to where I can not care for my daughter, however if there was ever and emergency and I happen to be intoxicated I could not respond or drive if I needed to.

Now with that said.... I am not one to set in an aa meeting. I have tried that in the past and the place was filled w/ smoke caring people yes. I have since moved and there are no AA programs in my small town... and I do not want to drag my baby to meetings w/ me....
I want to meet new people here for support. I do have a family history or alcohol abuse mostly Grandparents and Aunts etc. My parents do drink every now and again but they have control as to where I do not.
thank you for reading and I am looking forward to meeting many wonderful supportive ppl here..