I am watching my untreated elderly mother fall apart from delusions. She has always been depressive, occasionally suicidal. When I was younger I just called her mean or sad. Now that I am a 43 year old wife and mother I worry for my future and thta of my chidren. My 51 year old brother is undiagnosed aspergers I think. My 59 year old brother is depressive.

I honestly feel fine. I am happy. I have a supportive and loving husband. We have a good and caring life. I always try to be positive and look for the good in a situation. If there is a problem we work tougher to solve it. My children do well in school and we are very close. We have no substance or abuse issues.

I live in fear that I am destined to be the same way as my family. Because of their issues I feel like I am trapped in their world of pain which I would walk away from if I could. I used to feel like I am able to deal and they are not, now I worry about handling the landslide of issues I have to face.

This post isn’t to insult or call out any one. I would just like someone to talk to.
I have even considered seeing a doctor myself just to talk things out to make some sense out of what I am feeling.