Im glad your owning your actions, that is a good start But you have alot to prove to your husband that you can and will only love him and never contact that guy or ANYONE again. Turn the Hyper sexuality towards your husband.

Are you in Therapy / If not go go go go ! Do you have a PDOC ? you need to see them ASAP to see if a med /med adjustment can help.

I hope your husband is willing to go to couples therapy but he ALSO needs to see a Therapist to help him process what you have done to him and your marriage.

I hope that things work out for you and your husband. You have a long probably very tough road ahead of you.

Good luck

Welcome to PC