oops sorry,I forgot Im not on a UK site ! They just said they have done every thing for me like meds etc,I did attend one group but it was all about being "happy people and dont be negative "and the women taking it put me down all the time so I left and another women I seen was a occupational therapist and she stopped seeing me as soon as I said I was suicidal so now mental health team have given up on helping me !Last year I tried to take my life and I told my CPN and it didnt bother her the slightest only saying that Im always feeling down but I get myself through it each time.Even my GP said I only do half hearted suicide attempts to get attention and if I really meant it go and do it properly the next time ! The only time my CPN took interest in my health was when she asked what about the kids if I take my life,I stupidly said I would take them with me,same day social worker at the door! You just cant win ! I forgot to mention I have been seeing a pychotherapist for a year now and she is to discharge this month too as I dont talk openly enough to her,Im really shy and anxious person so its really hard to start conversations etc. Right now I just feel like stopping my meds and thats the illness won.