Happy New Year, all!

My case manager has mentioned my dating again-my ex who stayed my friend died unexpectedly in July '06 of a "catastrophic heart attack"-autopsy findings. He had expressed a desire to date again. He was 49 but not in the best of health-overweight, smoked....He was trying to change his lifestyle but started too late. His dad died of the same thing at 47! He also had OCD and we helped each other with coping skills, etc.

I'm just getting over the blaming part-a priest at church said everyone's life ends. I also lost my sweet baby dog last March at age 12. She had an enlarged heart and was going downhill. I wear her heart-shaped rabies tag under my clothes.

I just wish I had something more tangible of my ex! I'm 48 and I believe I'm starting menopause 9FINALLY(-i''ve been going on 3 months without periods. So I don't care about children.

I don't know-I'm lonely sometimes but God is my Beloved and He satisfies my emotional needs. I've recently begun exploring Christian mysticism and have found my life very enriched by it.

By the way, my disorders are OCD, GAD and some ADD.

OCD chick