Anna, I think you writing this post was a start...you just described some very real things happening...maybe you should keep posting and print all of them out, or get a noteboook and do a journal...you will be amazed at what comes out when you do that!! You made a start...we are here. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers...I think I am trying for a direct line to God right now anyway, adding you would be peachy!!!

Hugs, I know it is hard, melanie