I scored 181 with 15 serious concerns...
I'm losing my mind, I'm pretty sure of this. But I don't know what to do. I'm 30 and I have no health insurance. It's been getting consistently worse since I was a teenager, but now days I'm not sure what is real and what is in my head. So many shocking things have happened in my life, and it seems like before I can get over one thing there is another thing suddenly occurring that's even more traumatic and I'm stuck in a never-ending loop of loss and sadness. I can't control my thoughts or actions very well anymore, but I'm not violent and so I don't want to be locked away in an asylum. I'm just scared, really scared. I want help, but only if it will fit into my life without removing me from the world that I don't feel like I'm a part of anyways. I don't want to go anywhere though, like ever. Not alone anyways. And my anxiety is so bad I can't walk into an office to talk, I'm getting that tingling sensation of "fight or flight" right now simply from thinking about it. Or maybe it's from typing out my thoughts. Admitting I need help. And now my mind is suddenly screaming at me saying that I'm fine and that I'm just being dramatic and "crying wolf" as they say, but I know this isn't true because this can't be normal. But I don't know what normal is. I may be normal. I don't really know anymore.

My areas of concern are:
General Coping, Life Events, Depression, Anxiety, Phobias, Self-Esteem, Schizophrenia, Dissociation, Mania & Bipolar Disorder, Alcohol/Drug Issues, Gambling Issues, Technology Issues, Obsessions & Compulsions, Posttraumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD), and Borderline Traits.
All of the numbers were pretty high too...

I need advice