I've known my boyfriend since years ago and started dating this past year, but i've never opened up to him before. I'm suffering a severe case of anxiety, trust issues and stress, I had traumas and went to some psychologists, fortunately I've progressed a lot.

My long distance boyfriend in the other hand is living a very happy life until now. He hasn't got any problem in his life that 'turns his head'. Sometimes I feel like he's only thinking about his life and how mine revolves around him, i feel like he sometimes forget that i have my own life, and that I want to progress in life.

He's very nice, he cares about my day, my health and all. But I don't feel like he 'understands' me. When I tried to open up to him the only think he said to me was 'you need help' and 'pls stop thinking like that' and got a little grumpy. But i know he said that because it's 'him', he just doesn't know what to do. He has good intentions and he loves me a lot, i get that.. But it's painful for me to talk to him.
Sometimes when I talk about serious matter he would just joke around and I didn't get to send my message across.

I'm tired. That's how I feel. But I know i want him, because he makes me happy. But at the other hand, i don't feel like he appreciates me.