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Old Sep 28, 2017, 07:19 AM
NotDeadYet NotDeadYet is offline
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Originally Posted by glamslam View Post
Oh, I have "seen" shadow people and stress or bad insomnia triggers it for me.
The first time I saw them, I was terrified. Your reply .... you're going through a lot for a LONG time. It's good you can sometimes know what triggers you. Not being able to shower for a month, that serious, IMO. What happened that led you being able to shower again?

Are you able to go about your day with all of this that you're currently experiencing? No judging from me, at all. My paranoia ...being delusional and hallucinating, it lasted eight months because I trusted no one.

I finally told my psychiatrist that a secret society was following me, tracking my movements and electronic communication and they were after me. He was the sole person I trusted by this point. Ironically, he pulled me out of it and back into reality with one question! And then he prescribed a medication to treat the symptoms, which went away completely within a week.

Nowadays, I have more insight and can often tell when I'm starting to become psychotic, similar to you knowing media can be a problem.

Severe, ongoing stress in my life tends to bring my symptoms on. I've had psychosis during bipolar episodes since .... but I can recognize when I'm at risk. And I let my treatment team know and we typically can end the episode early on. I have a medication that helps - delusions and hallucinations disappear.

I realize now that shadow people aren't real. I know that I need to get myself stabilized and my boyfriend keeps an eye on me, as I disassociate often. He also has bipolar 1 with psychotic features. He gets it, so to speak.

I am concerned for you, having to deal with all that's happening in your life and it's ongoing, it seems. There's help out there for you. A good psychiatrist and therapist can work wonders. What do you think? I know it's always a personal choice and some manage fine not seeking medical care - and there are those, like me, that require ongoing treatment. It took me a few years to fully accept that. But mental illness does not define me.

A medical professional could benefit one's health and quality of life greatly---people experience unusual things like shadow people in various illnesses. We can support you and I hope you continue to let us know how things are going. We are of course not qualified to offer medical opinions/diagnoses. But there are people here (like me) that care and you're not alone. This is a safe, supportive community. Are there IRL folks that are supportive when you are going through a hard time?

Do you want the shadow person in your kitchen to go away? Do you think they are there for a specific reason or do you realize it's a hallucination?

Regardless, big hugs for you. Have you considered finding out why all these things are happened--the cause? Do you feel depressed at all?

Thinking of you. I'll keep up with your thread...
The cause of the shower issues was that I was watching a video about a ghost that kills you in the shower if you know their name and since I knew their name I thought they were going to kill me, so it took a month before I was able to fully forgets their name and since I didn't know their name I knew that they wouldn't kill me, in retrospect is was kinda dumb... I can go outside but most of the time I just want to stay in the only place I really find safe, which is under my blankets on my bed its really the only place I truly feel safe and guarded. I know nothing can hurt me there and no one can see me, even my thoughts are safe there, its hard to want to go out when I feel like I'm being monitored but its not impossible, the worst place was at the bus stop cause so many people came and went and it raised my paranoia of being monitored. I, sadly, do have some insight to know when somethings just a part of my brain but it still scares me, I know their isn't much reason for any organization to monitor me but I still fear it and it still make me want to avoid most public places even if its illogical it just makes so much sense? If that makes sense. I want the shadow people to leave and I don't want these fears, but I'm also afraid of what I am without them even if I know it would make me feel better to not have to do weird **** so my thoughts are safe and the anxiety kills me. I only trust 1 person to know about this stuff and they do kinda know about it, but I fear I will drive them away and annoy them and they will use this as a reason to leave me, I cant stand losing people, I know I'm to mush for most people so when people stay I want them to stay one has already left and I know they hate me so I do want to keep this other one. Most of the time this all just makes me want to commit suicide, I fear never changing and I fear change and I feel stuck in a limbo of this. This got ramble-ly whoops