Before I was admitted I had a go at my mum. I got angry because she said that my "poor" fiance must be devastated we broke up .poor lad she said. So I exploded and said "you have never cared if I was happy. ...my brother always got everything and there was nothing left over for me....you always put me bottom of pecking order"
So my nan asked if I was jelous of my brother it was just me n mun for short space of time. I said no because my father looked after me while she went out and partied. She was shocked. Everyone things I am so one dimensional.
But come to think of it, my brother always got more attention from my mum n step dad's friends and our extended family as he was "full of energy" and confident and handsome. I caused a few scenes but I was just a bairn. Sorry strawberry milkshake, it was my issues.
But who has never had issues at some point in their life?
I always felt left out of my family. I would have traded my good grades for some love and attention any day.
My mum never praised me.
She always boasted more about my brother even though I was top of my class so it's nonwonder I found it hard to apply myself and went off the rails.
This is just the tip of the iceberg.
But it's in the past. I am only human.