Hello. Welcome to PC I'm glad you're here. I'm sorry you went through such a difficult relationship. You didn't do anything wrong. He was abusive and I'm sure you have mixed feelings about the whole thing. How long has it been since you came home? You may need more time to process this (a therapist might be good) before you're able to forgive. He treated you terribly. It will take some time. Good for you for having enough esteem to say enough is enough and move back home. Again, I strongly encourage therapy for help in processing this. I hope you come to a place of peace and healing soon. Sending big hugs.