The doctor and I used to be very close, but now because of what I found out about him I don't trust him at all, and there is no way I'm letting him increase the dose on my clozapine or add on another medication. Ive been in and out of that IOP for 3 years now. He's only a pdoc there so today Im going to tell them today is my last day of IOP.
And yes SI is suicidal ideation.