Trigger Warning....

I was shamed out of my ways via a camera and putting out their thoughts and what they saw I guess it puts new meaning too who will i leave myself too...They blasted our proclivities onto twitter and facebook a cult group basically a guess who, we know u in ways that no one but a marriage partner would or some of form of trauma carrier would....The swipes got revealed at each time we where finished wrought with clues of who it was right to the enemy they never would admit too it openly on church grounds hence further damage and pain.....It was phone twitter was the only way they would talk about it via coaxing on twitter about the join of 2009.....I can laugh about it now it utimaltey helped us get the verbiage for our dx's of DID and PTSD for everything that else once I got of their shameful and went on the real journey of healing.....

I don't do it any longer except in different ways. It seems like there is wanting you to stop in this post from yourself. I don't think you can just stop change something about it.....Pick something creative about it change it for the the better maybe one less time.....I don't suggesst accountablility because that is my pain it was from a place of judgement not becuase I dont' want it shared as me or them not to be in the no it wasn't right in either context. I could have waited for what would gave me the greatest clarity because it cause so many other problems. I would say one less time then like a weaning from their. What ever make you comfortable I think you are the one that needed pleasure it is what God blessed us with use it affirm yourself.......The facet of yourself that enjoys make it enjoyable a day devoted to enjoyment then possible a day to weed out what hurt about it until it evens out healing is possible attainable. Find a great therapist on the topic