omg this is me. His favourite thing to do and say is give me these crazy eyes and call me mental. I absolutely hate when he says it to me because I'm a great mom, cook great meals, keep the house clean and pay and keep all bills under control. don't get me wrong, I have my days where I can't get out of bed but I'm doing so much better with that.
Also what you said about having a big heart and being an easy target. I will say I have a big heart but I put a mask on in front of people in supermarket and especially our neighbours. They have taken it the wrong way, where they think I think I'm something special. so they hate my guts. banging their bins, slamming their doors and swinging their gates constantly.
I suffer already with anxiety and panic attacks do if I hear a door slam etc I just get the worse anxiety which leads to a panic attack.
I'm seeing my doctor tomorrow because it's too much!! really hope you start doing better amethyst, with your self esteem. its so hard to change the way of thinking and believe me, I kno! x