I understand. Sometimes I feel like running away too, but where would I run too? I don't have any money and my car won't go far. I had a talk with my husband last night about what I need in the relationship by using the assertiveness skills I've learned while in therapy learning DBT and he seemed to get it, so we'll see. Do you think maybe you could have a talk with your husband? The one assertiveness sentence that's good is "I feel ___ when ____ because _____" and just fill in the blanks. If you don't communicate what you need men will never know, apparently they're not mind readers. If you don't think talking would help maybe couples counseling could help. Me and my husband did that in 2015 and it helped.

If you ever feel like venting I'm in chat most of the time during the day, just PM me in chat and I'll listen I don't mind.