I'm so overwhelmed with self-hatred. It comes and goes in severity but when it's severe it's VERY severe and leads me to do bad things.

The other day I had an argument with my boyfriend which I blamed entirely on me and I ended up smashing my arm against a desk with a beer bottle until I bruised and could not properly bend my wrist for a little while.

This ironically happened the very same night after my therapist told me to work on loving myself, to which I responded that hurting myself is how I love myself cause that's all I know.

Aside from hurting myself physically I chastise myself emotionally and can't receive compliments from people without feeling uncomfortable because I believe they are all untrue.

How do you overcome self-hatred? How do you love yourself? I feel that I'm constantly at war with myself.