(I never know where to post these since I'm not diagnosed with anything so I don't want to butt me way into others space)

This will probably be among my weirder beliefs? But sometimes I feel like I'm a god? Not God with the capital G but just a god? It's not an all the time belief or something that I feel constantly. Also separate question can you further you own delusions? Cause I fear I do that sometimes and that I'm accidentally doing it rn...
But back to the god thing, I fear that since I know life is a lie I may actually be a special being that just doesn't have any powers and maybe that's why I'm being watch and why I fear I have to be so careful and other times it's kinda mean I'm just better then everyone and they should give me praise and attention cause who wouldn't want to give a good attention? Of course in the latter it can lead to any episode where I feel like **** and have super low self-esteem. I know it's illogical but it still feel very real, so please be kind with your advice