Thank you for sharing your thoughts, golden_eve! I asked my friend how she was doing a couple of times during summer, and a month ago asked her directly why she hadn't been in contact. I've received no reply. I think I have given up there thinking I can only wait and see if she ever contacts me again. I think my therapist not replying either just brought it all back. I have to do some work so I don't start to feel worthless every time someone else ignores me..