I was talking about my memory this morning to someone and I realized I couldn't remember anything about my dad. The only way I can remember things is if I get high and listen to the Deftones CD White Pony and look through the photo album I have of pictures of him. So that's what I did. It helped. I could remember things from 4/5 years old. Why this works is beyond me. I feel like asking pdoc but then he'll put down that I'm using drugs in my file again. I haven't done drugs since June, so I guess RESET the clock, until the next time this happens.