What is reality? I dare someone to define it.
We may not be gods but our minds are powerful and there is so much we do not know about our own potentials.
Not dead yet, your thoughts are tied closely to your mental health, and it may help to have yours analyzed, but never accept "reality" because that's the way someone says it is, it must be acceptable to you. A therapist can help you make sense of what is in your head.