Hmm... do you think perhaps you are clinging to the security of home and your parents too much? I don't think it's necessarily healthy for a 30-year old to shun their friends to be at home with their parents, so it could be your mental health issues at play that are holding you back. It seems that from what you're saying you used to hang around with your friends. Did something happen that made you shy away from socializing? I think it would be good to get out again and to be more social. (((Hugs))))