A couple of people haven't been replying to my messages for a while. I'm finding that when people ignore me like this, it sends me into a tailspin of anger, rage, terror - and trying to fight feeling worthless. I've been wondering how I could convince myself that I'm worthy no matter what anyone else does..

I think the answer is self-love. For most of my life, I haven't been taking care of myself - didn't think I was worth it, didn't know how to.. It's had such a detrimental effect on my health that lately, I've had no choice but to try and pay more attention to self-care. And I've found it really does help! It makes me feel better. And if I really stop to listen to myself when someone else does something that makes me feel bad, I actually have this small voice in my head saying the answer is to take extra good care of myself - that is, love myself!

So, I'm going to try and do that more and more I guess it just takes lots of repetition to make it a continuous habit.