I had a session yesterday. It was ok, we mostly talked about practical things. I felt stuck, like I couldn't get clear to the things I needed to talk about. I know I am making the best of a difficult choice in a nearly impossible situation but (or maybe because of that) I couldn't talk about how hard it is right now or how angry I am and how betrayed I feel or that I have no idea how to balance everyone else's needs with my own because they are so far apart.

I've been crying off and on ever since.