Yes.
While I always try to celebrate and be happy for others good fortune, sometimes it feels like I am only ever on the side congratulating others for reaching milestones. It feels like I am never the one being congtatulated, and that can sometimes really suck, when I get to feeling like "when the fuuck is it going to be my turn?!"...

Then I feel bad for feeling bad, which makes me feel guilty for not being happier for them. s
Idk if that makes sense. I just wish it felt like the playing field were a little more even and life was fairer in its distribution of good fortune.

I love what Christina said about not chasing happiness, just wanting to be content. It sounds realistic and attainable and a good attitude to have in life. But I can't lie- I am totally chasing down happy and mere contentment feels sort of like a consolation prize to me. I want amazing.
anyway great question to ponder. Take care.