I’m not even sure if this fits in this forum but I’m not sure where else to ask.

I have this problem where I become overly fixated on this one person. I feel like I have to know every single last detail about this person.

Instead of just talking to them, I will go to crazy limits to find them on social media and obsessively check it all the time. When I say this, I don’t mean in a cute “stalking your crush on Facebook” kind of way. I mean,almost every time I open my phone, going to their social media is my natural reflex.

If I see the person in public I make a point to remember when and what time I saw them in order to increase the odds of bumping into again. Sometimes I go as far as to learn their schedule to do this.

Whenever I see the person I feel great shame because I know things about them that I shouldn’t and feel extra anxious around them because I’ve created a version of them in my head and put them on a pedastol.

I know all of this is wrong and feel horrible for doing it and yet, I can’t stop myself. I compulsively do this. How do I stop it and what does it mean? I’m a 19 year old girl btw and have social anxiety if it helps.