Hi starrysky

It sounds like this has really worried you, so we are really priviledged that you've managed to share this with us, thankyou!!
Of course we can't diagnose and, yes definately get it checked with your practitioners but I'd say that some, if not all, of this can be the effects of some experiences you've had............so while being concerned is good because it means a great start to addressing and working on finding ways in improving/resolving issues I wouldn't want you to be sticking all sorts of possible (and very possiblly inaccurate) labels on it
If you've had people in your life who have triggered insecurities in you, then sometimes solitary time can allow those insecurities to breathe and come to the surface more.......other times you might be a little "distracted" from some of the ways you can feel deep inside, but with enough solitary time........and for some people particular either non-descript or familiar or memory associated places can be places they "let go" or reflect in that way a bit more........like perhaps your kitchen...........
And what that says to me.........is that maybe it would help you, with support if you need it, to confront some of those self-doubts people have put/breed in you and to learn to recognise your true value and strengths a little more?? I know, maybe a lot easier said than done but........
And absolutely about finding ways that may help you more in addressing the trauma you experienced..........trauma's, as I'm sure you know, can have far-reaching effects.......which could include vastly magnifying anything else going on for you.......
As for the cars passing issue........that made me think of all the things you could hear about that can happen e.g. in the news........and if you're already feeling real vulnerable.........already felt people making you feel powerless..........could be a reason/part of a reason?? But with a little work on perspectives and some of those other issues.........
The day-dreaming/embarassing stuff..........do you think that again that could be linked with the insecurities..........?? Possible??
And on no.4, could be a perfectly understandable reason for that.......but I don't know........triggers which have come up anew.........subconcious thought associations..........certainly worth you listing all the possible reasons if you can.........then sometimes something might "click" a long while on, as in "Ahhh.......that's why I feel that way!!!!"

But ultimately, yes get it checked with your practitioner, it is really good that you're taking this step in addressing things going on for you, try not to attach all sorts of labels to yourself, and remember that if it is anything like social anxiety, effects of trauma etc. there will be plenty of things and support out there to help you in working through it

And thanks again for sharing starrysky!!



Alison