Thank you Alison. I also think labeling it...doesn't need to happen. I was going to go back and post that earlier. It's not that important. I also believe that yes, all these things, even, especially the kitchen, happen because of things that have happened to me.

SC2009, thank you. I am in therapy, but maybe I will consider seeing a trauma based therapist.

Jennifer, thank you. I'm glad you said it doesn't sound like psychosis. I was diagnosed with schizoaffective before, and it never ever felt right. It felt wrong. Inaccurate. I'm scared to tell my t, in a way, because I might get the diagnosis again. This is a new t though. But I don't know how good she is with trauma.

Fuzzy, thank you for the hugs