I am almost 18 now and in high school, I have a quite demanding study program and there are times when I feel worried/sad/stressed about completing the study portion in time, the thing is, whenever this happens; even unrelated to studies, whenever I feel significantly low, I remember something bad from my childhood and I cannot stop crying until the overwhelming flashback has passed. (Little background:my father was, and is, a horrible parent and husband, if we were in the United States or Canada, there would be a restraining order on him). The flashbacks include 3 year old me watching helpless and terrified while my father screams like a demon at my mother and she is crying and begging to not do this in front of me. Second one is my father throwing 8 year-old me out of the house barefoot, wearing my oldest clothes, and saying I no longer have a family, and I walk for a while, it's late in the night, and I look back and he is talking to our neighbour's watchman and laughing.
There are many more but the thing is that every time something in my present(school/stress/college applications) stress me out to reach a minor peak, I start a flashback of an event like this. Is it an excuse I use to feel sad/special/blame my father? Or does it happen with any of you too? Is there a name for it, I can't find one?
I mean it's not major enough to be PTSD, I think.