Hey Mickey,
Do you think that it's possible that because you're feeling "self-critical" you might be interpreting their feelings in a way far more than could be warrented???
I'm sensing that
maybe they were more discussing some difficulties they had in supporting you (with no manual about exactly what you should do/not do in every single situation when you're a parent!!!) rather than,
you being a difficulty...........and those two things are
entirely different..........worlds apart!!!
So perhaps about them feeling or being falible, and
everyone is falible,
not in any sense about you being a burden??
And maybe you could help them a little with that?? Just an idea.......perhaps you could tell them/one of them "I know you find it hard when I..........
I find it hard too.......but if you could just........that might help a lot"
So this does not in any way need to be about
you being a "difficulty" but about
their difficulties..........afterall as you know we on here see you as a really good person and so should your parents, including being real proud of you!!
Alison